brain fever

I am in the grad school waiting game. And since I'm unemployed, I have nothing to distract me, or take my mind off dreams like the one where I got into Oxford, albeit with no money offered and into my fourth choice college. The dream mainly served to drive home how much I don't believe I'll be in grad school next year. I just can't seriously conceive of not being rejected.

And then what Buffy episode should I watch but the one that mentions Willow getting accepted to Oxford. Argh.